Friday, January 06, 2006

i dont understand any shit

been like this for the past few mnths
i dont know hw to pick myself up
i dont know hw to forget all the stuffs tht happened in the past

when i was the one you wanted out of everyone

i dont understand
why the distance
and why we actually let it grow
to something tht we might never get again

i really regretted what i did
& i'll give anything to have it back
i really do.

i pray to God
every single night
without fail
to practically begging him
to let us solve this entire problem between us

but He doesnt listen
He doesnt answer my prayers
i dont know why

is it because He wants to teach me a lesson?
to lose something so precious
so i can understand the hurt
the damn pain
so i wont repeat this same mistake again

its been a year.
one whole year.
and i've never been able to get you out of my mind.

and i cant stand it
when you seem not to care anymore

perhaps you have alr forgotten abt me
hah.

it hurts so bad
i cant even describe the pain i feel
to see _____ being so fucking happy abt liking you

I HATE IT.
I WANT YOU FOR MY OWN.
I DONT WANT ANY HUSSY TO COME BUTT IN &
SAYS SHE LIKES YOU.

OMG.
THIS FUCKING SUCKS.

CAN YOU JUST COME BACK TO ME ?
PLEASE.
I'LL DO ANYTHING
ANYTHING
TO HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.


God.. can you please listen to me
and grant my prayer this once.
please God.
please.
please.

only almost here,
4:58 AM.